beverley91

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you
Now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

 

Another awesome yet emo song for you guys.

6am and i still can't sleep. Idk what's wrong. Ever since that day, nothing has been going right for me. Lost appetite for everything even though I'm starving, i just don't feel like touching food. Crying in the night to sleep, always trying my best to kick away those unwanted thoughts in my mind. I haven't been sleeping well for a few days and this really sucks. I really wish i could turn back time, so that things won't happen, things won't be this way now.
My heart's bleeding profusely, srsly never felt so painful before. Okay maybe i did felt so so painful before but it was very long ago and now I'm feeling the pain again. Things won't be right anymore, things won't be the same anymore.
Everything changes, everything is different, including myself. I won't be the same anymore. Tell me, what should i do to make myself feel better? Because I've run out of ideas. I tried different ways and methods but nothings helping.

Tell me how to save myself from all these heartaches, from all these painful tears, from all these nightmares. Tell me how to forget things that you don't wanna remember, tell me how to put things aside and live like you never lived before. It's as though my heart stopped beating like what happened in the past. I wanna sleep, i need my sleep, i need to take a break, i need to rest but I JUST COULDN'T DO IT.
I have so many questions on my mind and i know that i will never find the answer for these questions.

Love kills.

I very very lazy update photos. Just go view from my facebook alright ! Hahaha. It has been how long since I've updated !? Anyone missed me?! HAHA.

Let's start off first thing.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JEWEL ONG!!! MY CUTEST GIRLFRIEND EVER! :D

Thurs to Saturday stayed over babe's house. Thursday went singing with clique and it was so fun that after singing our throat went dry. & it's so cheap! After that went to have katong laksa for the first time. I think ALRIGHT la, not THAT nice anyw. Hahaha I think I'm weird. Went home to get my stuff and went over to babe's house. Ran in the middle of night, about 2 km, for 14mins. I fucking shag after that.
Srsly i think it's worse than having sex. HAHAHA.
Went to have supper but i ate porridge so my effort won't be wasted. :D what a smart girl. HAHA.
Went back and bathed, slept.

Next day we just nua-ed the whole day and went out for dinner at night. Played scrabble at home also, cock i lost to him. V sian. HAHA.
Saturday slept till afternoon and then went out for late lunch, desert then went to meet Stella tavis and her friends.

We played at Tampines CC, i guess that night will be an unforgettable night srsly. We went to the rooftop. Me & Stella got quite high.
Played old maid using poker cards, laughed like mad kids cause of the stupid forfeits that we thought of. Then we played another game is like whacking game. Wtf that game is fucking sick. Kena whack until my leg look like it just poured by boiling water. LOL. Internal bleeding.
Then we played till 11plus, forgot about the timing, went down and realize all the gates are locked. So we walked a few rounds finding places to get out, in the end we found opened windows so we actually climbed out of those windows. HAHAHAHA. Fucking fun.

I don't even feel like mentioning anythg about today.
Photos are on facebook, met tavis keith and stella at Tamp today, slacked at a new rooftop and it's so fucking shiok over there. :D Camwhored and it was fun. (:

Awesome song for you guys.


Tell me what's it gonna be this time,
Say that I was just a fool to believe u were mine,
Cannot imagine life without u by my side,
And it's killing my heart,
Cuz I wish I knew why,
Why would u do me this way,
When I love u,
Baby,

I believed what u said,
But love doesn't have a meaning,
When u hurt me so bad,
Just threw it all away,
U knew I was scared,
To once more let u get that close to me,
Despite what u did I believed,

U said it was gonna be for real this time,
U said u were gonna make it up to me,
And everything will be fine,
Never thought that I would have to let u go this way,
Should've followed my heart,
But I fell for the game,
Life just would not be the same without u,
Baby,

Now what do I say,
It was u,
U that made that choice to walk away,
But now,
Love will come my way,
Again,
I don't wanna hear ya sorry,
Cuz u know we have reached the end,

Ha... I believed...

Today suppose to sing but cancelled cause it was full so i booked Sunday instead. Let's hope everyone will be able to make it alright. (:
Went to pizzahut today with sab, ker and tavis. Had our lunch and it was raining heavily. After that walked around tampines 1, tavis and ker bought slippers and i bought a small little present for my mum and also finally bought my facial cleanser. =/
Slacked at starbugs for a little while.

Went off to meet my parents and had dinner at crystal jade. -.-
Went off to buy my speakers and i spent like 30mins or lesser figuring out how the wires work. _l_
Now my bass damn shiok. Hahah.
Anyway gonna do things to distract some unwanted thinkings.

Ray's cute. ;)
Goodnight.